I assume they thought it wasn't safe, or-- I very much hope that was the case, because I'd like to think they didn't keep it from us just to take it all upon themselves and leave us in the dark. Ichiro was the only one present for the decision who wasn't involved on Thursday, it was already difficult enough for him.

[she takes in a breath, exhales it steadily. god.]

...I really was afraid he would break. He was-- determined to take part this week, if we had continued, because then at least the blood on his hands would be literal.