No one deserves to die! [ Well. Apparently she's only fine with being quiet and accepting every manner of insult and method of fury only when it's directed at her. This, however?

Well, Otome isn't going to stop crying anytime soon, but at least her voice has strengthened. ]

That's-- exactly why I didn't want this! That's why I don't want you to disappear! You have so many people here who love you, Mandricardo! And you--

[ She takes a breath, fiercely shaking her head. ]

Wanting to forgive me, but wanting to lash out at me? Not wanting me to cry but knowing exactly what to say to hurt me? Hating this place but also being hurt that I did what I did, after everything you've been through? What makes you think you have to only feel one way? What makes you think you deserve death because of that?

I don't care if you're a king or a Servant, getting overwhelmed by your emotions pulling you every which way is human! You don't have to forgive me! You can be selfish!! You were betrayed before, of course this would devastate you! You care so deeply, how could it not?!

[ Again, Otome shakes her head, trying to force out the rest of her words through her sobs. ]

But I refuse to kill you! I already lost you once, don't-- don't make me do that to anyone else!