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Mandricardo ([personal profile] duranduel) wrote in [personal profile] momming 2021-07-30 08:22 pm (UTC)

do you ever look at a tag and it causes you emotional damage because hoo boy

[He's flummoxed almost to the point of stunned shock - the words come in, and they come out. Her hands are on his. He opens his eyes, blinking away hot tears, and just listens for a moment.]

I-It wasn't your choice though, not really, just...the choice for one out of three, but you were...trying to do the right thing...I get that...

[He says, his voice cracking, like from under a weight.]

I-I-I just want things to be okay, Otome. [But they're not. They're definitely not.] If only I could just wish it away. If only I could just...erase everything! All the pain I have, all the pain you have...

[Why, why, why...? Just for entertainment? Just because it's fun to someone else.]

Sometimes, I wish I was really just a tool for people to use. Wouldn't hurt as bad. Servants shouldn't be like this. [Broken, from the moment they're summoned.] And I don't...feel like I'm some...selfless person, here. I just want everyone to get along to make me feel better about it all, maybe.

[He doesn't know. he doesn't know anything. The heart is a terrible thing, like a monster, unable to be calmed down.]

Do you really think...........time will even help? S-so many others have already moved on.

[And yet here he is. Stuck.]

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