... Of course, I still need to try and make things right as much as I can. I don't expect to be forgiven-- even with the whole truth out, I did kill people. And lie.
It bothered me a lot at first. Nearly drove me nuts. Thought that, if everyone around me was going to be soft, then I'd have to be the one to fight.
... But there weren't any enemies to fight. There were just more stupid, soft people trying to help each other.
And the more I heard about the crap that weird "presence" said, and how similar it sounded to things I said before... the less I wanted to keep on being like that.
... Yeah... I mean, I did kind of think the worst of you, on and off...
But you've been carrying some pretty ridiculous burdens, when it comes to secrets, responsibilities, that sort of stuff... while also babysitting a bunch of idiots who get themselves injured constantly, and somehow getting through the weeks without becoming totally bitter and resentful of everyone and everything.
... Just saying, if it were me, I'd probably snap.
... I think you're giving yourself too little credit, Rita. To me, it sounds like you were trying to understand all along, weren't you? That you weren't just willing to outright condemn me until you knew the full truth and you've had your own share of burdens this whole time.
[ She smiles, tired but fond. ]
What happened here was no one's fault. We were placed into roles, of a sort, whether we wanted them or not. And even then, we all still cared enough about each other to frustrate this story, which-- really, I'm proud of us for that.
Thank you, though. I think if I had been doing this entirely on my own, I would have just stopped trying weeks ago.
After Byleth died, no one else in our group knew about Yamato-kun, unless they heard it from either of you. And I was the only one who knew about you. If you were targeted by the world, I was prepared to argue against choosing you as targets.
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... Of course, I still need to try and make things right as much as I can. I don't expect to be forgiven-- even with the whole truth out, I did kill people. And lie.
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That makes two of us.
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I think that actually makes me worse.
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Hurt someone? You?
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At the time, we still thought we needed to stop the killers.
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Well, I suppose that does make sense.
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[ She certainly can't! ]
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Pretty amazing how well everyone gets along here, with all the screwed-up stuff we've done to each other.
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... But there weren't any enemies to fight. There were just more stupid, soft people trying to help each other.
And the more I heard about the crap that weird "presence" said, and how similar it sounded to things I said before... the less I wanted to keep on being like that.
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You know, I'm glad you did fight as much as you did. But I'm also glad I was able to talk to you, after I confessed.
We've had a strange relationship, given our roles, but I do think you're an amazing person. And I'm grateful you helped everyone so much.
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... You're pretty amazing, yourself. I kinda get why people want to rely on you.
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But you've been carrying some pretty ridiculous burdens, when it comes to secrets, responsibilities, that sort of stuff... while also babysitting a bunch of idiots who get themselves injured constantly, and somehow getting through the weeks without becoming totally bitter and resentful of everyone and everything.
... Just saying, if it were me, I'd probably snap.
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[ She smiles, tired but fond. ]
What happened here was no one's fault. We were placed into roles, of a sort, whether we wanted them or not. And even then, we all still cared enough about each other to frustrate this story, which-- really, I'm proud of us for that.
Thank you, though. I think if I had been doing this entirely on my own, I would have just stopped trying weeks ago.
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[an exasperated sigh.]
I mean... you sounded pretty sincere when you said you'd protect us. And we had to wonder why me and Yamato never got targeted after outing ourselves.
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[yeah she'll let that sink in a little. feels a little bad, considering how much less charitable rita was towards otome.]
Glad it never came to that, but... thanks, I guess.
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You don't have to thank me. At that point, it was the only thing I could do.