She has a point to make here, but first she squeezes Beau's hand. ]
She saw right through me, honestly. That even though I wanted to save my world, to protect humanity, my true wish was that I just... didn't want to be alone.
I didn't end up taking her deal. I thought... that sort of thing was something I had to try and earn for myself or I wouldn't feel like I deserved it.
[ Otome is quiet for a minute, sorting through her thoughts. ]
But after everything-- killing Wang Lu, the trial, everything that happened with Adora and Catra, all the people who had been devastated by what I did, I thought maybe if I deserved anything, it was to be alone.
... But you wouldn't let me. I don't think you know just how much you've saved me, Beau. How much you still are.
[beau listens, curious - her expression is easy and relaxed, for the first time in weeks. the dorm heads are in trouble, and she knows when they roll out of bed, they're going to be both racing to find people, to make sure everything is ready for what comes. but right now, they're just... here. and it's nice.
and otome is telling her this, and beau just sort of... exhales, slow. smiles, bringing otome's hands up to kiss.]
... You don't deserve to be alone. [she says, quietly.] I feel like that's one of the worst fucking things you can do to a person. Isolate them.
... I'll have to accept that, I think. Unfortunately, we don't have time for me to win through distraction.
[ Time to try and do damage control again. She pulls back, a little regretfully, to get off the bed and start changing, though she pauses as she tugs on her coat and reaches into her pocket. ]
[ Beau is valid. It is her bed and her room and if she wants to stay naked and hot, that is her prerogative.
But Otome glances back at her with a faint smile and then walks back to press something in her hand.
It's a circle of little blue flowers, pretty clumsily tied together. And looking at it now, Otome looks a little... embarrassed. ]
I remember you helped me make a flower crown and I thought I wanted to return the favor, but I never was any good at it, and anything bigger than this just started looking disastrous, so a bracelet was all I could manage.
... Now that I see it after having slept properly, I think I might not have even managed that.
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no, beau just - sort of sighs a little. she reaches and takes otome's hands instead, twining their fingers together.]
... Lucretia told me a bit about it, I think. Isharnai. [...] You didn't take her deal, did you?
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She has a point to make here, but first she squeezes Beau's hand. ]
She saw right through me, honestly. That even though I wanted to save my world, to protect humanity, my true wish was that I just... didn't want to be alone.
I didn't end up taking her deal. I thought... that sort of thing was something I had to try and earn for myself or I wouldn't feel like I deserved it.
[ Otome is quiet for a minute, sorting through her thoughts. ]
But after everything-- killing Wang Lu, the trial, everything that happened with Adora and Catra, all the people who had been devastated by what I did, I thought maybe if I deserved anything, it was to be alone.
... But you wouldn't let me. I don't think you know just how much you've saved me, Beau. How much you still are.
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and otome is telling her this, and beau just sort of... exhales, slow. smiles, bringing otome's hands up to kiss.]
... You don't deserve to be alone. [she says, quietly.] I feel like that's one of the worst fucking things you can do to a person. Isolate them.
[a pause.]
... Thank you for letting me save you.
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[ She gazes down at her hands, quietly. ]
I should be the one thanking you, for everything.
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[she leans to press a kiss to otome's nose.]
So let's skip that. Just say, maybe, that we both have done a lot for each other.
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[ Time to try and do damage control again. She pulls back, a little regretfully, to get off the bed and start changing, though she pauses as she tugs on her coat and reaches into her pocket. ]
Oh, one more thing.
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What?
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But Otome glances back at her with a faint smile and then walks back to press something in her hand.
It's a circle of little blue flowers, pretty clumsily tied together. And looking at it now, Otome looks a little... embarrassed. ]
I remember you helped me make a flower crown and I thought I wanted to return the favor, but I never was any good at it, and anything bigger than this just started looking disastrous, so a bracelet was all I could manage.
... Now that I see it after having slept properly, I think I might not have even managed that.