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Otome "bend over and cough" Yanagiya ([personal profile] momming) wrote2021-06-06 05:54 pm
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[personal profile] disreguarded 2021-07-31 04:12 am (UTC)(link)
[it is probably an indicator of her mental state at the moment that her reply is just one word:]

angry
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[personal profile] disreguarded 2021-07-31 04:18 am (UTC)(link)
don't know
probably shouldn't be

not angry at you
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[personal profile] disreguarded 2021-07-31 04:28 am (UTC)(link)
[she does, in fact, open the door! she's been seen to, at least, a potion forced on her, so she's significantly less exploded, though she is coughing on the couch when otome comes in.

she just looks tired, mostly, and vaguely confused.]
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[personal profile] disreguarded 2021-07-31 04:33 am (UTC)(link)
[she just... rests her head on otome's shoulder.]

... What was the point of all of it? We didn't even save her.
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[personal profile] disreguarded 2021-07-31 04:42 am (UTC)(link)
[she just... sighs. pulls her knees up to her chest.

cough.]


Don't apologize. You're the only one who had her head on straight.
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[personal profile] disreguarded 2021-07-31 04:48 am (UTC)(link)
[a pause.]

... Is that what we were doing? [a beat.] Severing Annie's connection to the story.
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[personal profile] disreguarded 2021-07-31 05:03 am (UTC)(link)
... Yeah.

[well, okay. that feels a little better than having just killed annie for no reason. she'll take that. it's still been a lot, and she's still - unhappy, but at least there's maybe some hope.

a pause, and then:]


I think - there's only so much more of myself that I have to give. But I'll try.
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[personal profile] disreguarded 2021-07-31 05:16 am (UTC)(link)
I know.

[and she's just quiet. she'd said she was angry - and that's true, because she is, but it's kind of just. helpless anger. there's nowhere for it to go.

beau is not really a heroic person. she tries, and sometimes she succeeds, but she can't always force herself to keep going and going, after a while. she's doing her best, because this is the right thing to do, and she doesn't want more people to suffer, it's just. she's - really just burnt out. tired.

seeing yasha and veth really kicked her ass - she hadn't realized how much she'd missed home until right this second.]
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[personal profile] disreguarded 2021-07-31 05:39 am (UTC)(link)
[she nods a little, and then shifts, wrapping her arms around otome's waist. it's unfair, to not take her fair share of the support. she has to be there for people, or what good is she - she should be trying harder to make otome rest, to balance this out, but she's just ache-y and upset. doesn't have the energy, the drive, or the motivation to do anything but stew in her own thoughts, her negativity.

a pause.]


I've tried... really hard. My whole life. [she says, a little fragmented.] To not be what someone else wanted me to be. I made my own decisions, and I made myself into something on my own merit.

Feels like all of that has been taken from me, here.