[It's sort of an ugly thing to say, to throw some of his own pain in her face, but . . . he doesn't have the gentleness of the person who spoke to him after that, so something harsh will have to do.]
[He goes a little more closed off at that. It's good of her to worry, but he is also protective, wants to keep a barrier there if he can. When he thought Otome may have suspected the cost, he could have killed her. He still feels anger about it; that she knew she might have been hurt, but let Beau be the one to do it.]
I don't even know what to make of what you said in there.
That's... something you'll probably have to discuss with the others. I really don't think it's a good idea if I...
[ Yeah. She's not someone who enjoys others being harmed. What had happened to Adora had seriously shocked her, and that numb horror is still very much present. But also resolve, to never speak of it again. She can't risk other people's lives. ]
[Ah, Otome. Despite everything, he just feels sorry for her.]
But I suppose I wonder. . . if it hadn't been for Adora, if the punishment had fallen on you instead, would you have been satisfied with that outcome for yourself?
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. . . So would I. I would love to do it.
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[ A pause, and some worry creeps into her emotions. ]
... Is Beau all right?
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[He goes a little more closed off at that. It's good of her to worry, but he is also protective, wants to keep a barrier there if he can. When he thought Otome may have suspected the cost, he could have killed her. He still feels anger about it; that she knew she might have been hurt, but let Beau be the one to do it.]
I don't even know what to make of what you said in there.
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[ Yeah. She's not someone who enjoys others being harmed. What had happened to Adora had seriously shocked her, and that numb horror is still very much present. But also resolve, to never speak of it again. She can't risk other people's lives. ]
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[He only wanted to try and listen to her emotional reaction. If she seemed confused or uncertain about it.]
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So much for trying to help!! ]
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But I suppose I wonder. . . if it hadn't been for Adora, if the punishment had fallen on you instead, would you have been satisfied with that outcome for yourself?
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[ No hesitation there. ]
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[Though there's a wave of some hurt there, too.]
. . . It would have been equally cruel to Beauregard if you had succeeded. But sometimes, risks need to be taken.
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[ She breaks off, frustrated. ]
Honestly, I... don't know what to do now.
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[The way he says that, the emotions that come with it, suggests that he understands that that may be the cruellest part of all of this.]
So there will be things you can do.
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... You're right. [ tiredly. ]
Even if I had to break my oath, I'm still a doctor. And I still want to end this.
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[ It's vague, but. It has to be. ]
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Alright. Then let's work at it, to whatever extent we can.
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[ For a lot of things, but most importantly-- ]
I'm glad she has you.
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[To have people like her who care about him. . . it's more than what he feels he deserves, so he intends to protect it however he can.]
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[ Though this group doesn't seem to be all that confident about themselves. ]
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. . . We've treated both you and Byleth a bit cruelly, haven't we? Exposing you, but leaving you to wait around for the hammer to drop.
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Just another punishment, but I can't deny that I deserve it.
[ She waits four days for someone to kill her or no one does and she lives with this for longer. ]
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[Softly.]
. . . What do you hope happens? Do you want to be free of this? Or if you had the choice, would you rather stay and do what you can?
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... I don't want to run from responsibility. If I could, I would stay and try to bring this to a close.
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. . . Good. Then I hope you can.