But what about the people? Do they know it was reset? Is anything different for them? What about you and those people you were with? Do they remember everything?
No one else remembers. I also didn't remember, for a while-- but then my memory came back, just like the people I was with. Gradually, granted, but still.
...how's that fair? [it's not about fairness, and he knows it's a childish question but it's pretty messed up.] You didn't ask to reset the whole world, did you?
... Well, the memories of the second time are a little fuzzy, but...
I did mention a void, I think. After fighting the things testing us, we were given the choice to decide how we wanted the world to be. And eventually we decided to just set things back to before the monsters attacked, to restore the lives that had been lost and to get rid of the void.
Of course, then stronger things came... not to test, but to eradicate, and the void is spreading even further now.
Yeah, you mentioned the void. [...this sounds bad! he hates that!] So what, now this void is basically taking over and your resets didn't even do anything? How do you even fight something like that?
We're picking a fight with a force in charge of... well, the world. It assigns Administrators to dispense tests or to eradicate what it deems to be faulty-- in other words, humanity.
If we can defeat it, Administrators will cease to exist and whatever happens to the world will just be through humanity's efforts and potential.
And if you don't do anything at all, the world will be destroyed. Who are these Administrators that get to decide who or what's even faulty? How is that even fair?
[he doesn't even get that long to be indignant though, because not long after otome gets a memory from him.]
It was meant to rid the digital world of an infection that was spreading and infecting the digimon. But rebooting meant that every digimon lost their original memories.
Yeah. All of them forgot everything about themselves, including us. They didn't even remember their own names when they evolved for the first time after we met again.
[it would be fantastic if people stopped asking him that. so for a moment he kind of stares at her as he attempts to assess his own feelings.]
...I don't know. We did the right thing. There really wasn't another option, and Nishijima-sensei did say he was leaving the future to us. So...all we can do is keep moving forward.
[it's a cop-out answer and also a vague one because yeah, he has not had time to really properly think about any of this since they slammed right into murder academy.]
I don't disagree with that. But I've learned that... we can tell ourselves over and over that we did the right thing and it will be better this way, and we can accept that and work on moving forward.
But we never really allow ourselves time for our emotions. Grief and wanting to lean on someone...
[ She pauses, and then-- ]
When I remembered-- being a mother, I tried so hard to put it aside because I thought nothing could be done about it. I couldn't go back. I could only move forward.
[...ow. he's not sure what it is about the way otome says that, but when he thinks about how she lost a bond like that only to remember it and be unable to regain it...he understands, sort of. it had felt like that with the digimon initially. they were there, but they weren't.
he can only think it was on an even worse level for her.]
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But what about the people? Do they know it was reset? Is anything different for them? What about you and those people you were with? Do they remember everything?
[she has his full attention, hi.]
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No one else remembers. I also didn't remember, for a while-- but then my memory came back, just like the people I was with. Gradually, granted, but still.
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...and you're all okay? Even remembering both sets of memories?
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... It has its complications. The memories from the last world only come to me as nightmares, for example.
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... Well, the memories of the second time are a little fuzzy, but...
I did mention a void, I think. After fighting the things testing us, we were given the choice to decide how we wanted the world to be. And eventually we decided to just set things back to before the monsters attacked, to restore the lives that had been lost and to get rid of the void.
Of course, then stronger things came... not to test, but to eradicate, and the void is spreading even further now.
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If we can defeat it, Administrators will cease to exist and whatever happens to the world will just be through humanity's efforts and potential.
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[he doesn't even get that long to be indignant though, because not long after otome gets a memory from him.]
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Otome would reply, but. Memory time.
And she's quiet as that occurs, frowning at the glitching appearance in Agumon's eyes. ]
A... a reboot? To stop data corruption?
[ WOW THIS IS HITTING HOME ]
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It was meant to rid the digital world of an infection that was spreading and infecting the digimon. But rebooting meant that every digimon lost their original memories.
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[ Well. It makes sense now, why he'd seemed so fixated on the talk of resets, but Otome just gives him a softly worried frown. ]
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[ When good intentions don't even pay off... ]
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Yeah. Yeah, everything's okay again. Earth's saved, the digital world's saved, and everything's going to go back to the way it was.
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[which is maybe not what otome's asking but it's what his focus is.]
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...I don't know. We did the right thing. There really wasn't another option, and Nishijima-sensei did say he was leaving the future to us. So...all we can do is keep moving forward.
[it's a cop-out answer and also a vague one because yeah, he has not had time to really properly think about any of this since they slammed right into murder academy.]
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I don't disagree with that. But I've learned that... we can tell ourselves over and over that we did the right thing and it will be better this way, and we can accept that and work on moving forward.
But we never really allow ourselves time for our emotions. Grief and wanting to lean on someone...
[ She pauses, and then-- ]
When I remembered-- being a mother, I tried so hard to put it aside because I thought nothing could be done about it. I couldn't go back. I could only move forward.
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he can only think it was on an even worse level for her.]
...did you give yourself time after that?
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